Zsombor`s Birth

My son, Zsombor was born via C-section on February 18, 2007, after 24 hours of labor, weighing 10 lbs 4 oz, measuring 24 inches.
Even though we knew he was going to be a big baby beforehand, I was hoping for a natural birth.

The reason for me to share the birthing experience with you is that autism, as well as any other developmental disability, is often linked to the birthing process and to the lack of oxygen at birth.
However, I believe that there are no random occurences in life, everything that happens was meant to be. There is a reason why it all happened this way.
I wanted to give birth naturally, but it didn`t work out that way.
I had a bad experience about the entire birthing process, and the attitudes of the nurses and doctors working at the hospital but I won`t go into details

Zsombor was a big baby, I wasn`t dilated, didn`t have any contractions, and the oxytocin and epidural that had been forced upon me had side effects.
My uterus cramped up and my son suddenly got stuck in the birth canal. Because of all this, I needed a C-section.
The reason why I`m sharing this experience is because it might be associated with Zsombor`s autism.
After two unsuccessful epidurals I didn`t lose any sensitivity.


I felt not only the usual tugging and pulling but every needle, cut, people`s hands, fingers on my stomach and I was in terrible pain as if they did an autopsy on me while I was still alive.
I was miserable and I was screaming bloody murder.
In the meantime the two OBs doing the surgery were talking about skiing.
I felt helpless, angry, lonely, vulnerable and I was in extreme pain.
I was hoping to faint, to lose consciousness from all the pain the entire time.
Unfortunately it didn`t happen.


Staring at the clock in the OR I screamed through the entire 45 minutes.
When I got introduced to Holistic Medicine later on, I got an answer to what the triggering cause might be, or what kind of biological phenomenon is behind autism.
My son was stuck "sunny-side up" in the birth canal from 6pm until his birth at 8.32pm.

During all this time he could have gone through a variety of emotions, such as fear, anger and helplessness.
I`m scared to even think about what he must have gone through.
On top of that, he sensed his mother`s misery and struggles.


He heard the screams, saw the bright light and suddenly he felt the cold air...It was approx.65-68F in the OR, not exactly a baby-friendly temperature in a baby-friendly hospital
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Many people believe that autism is triggered by trauma or some kind of toxicity.

Well, I only agree with this theory to the extent that these are tools for our souls to trigger and live the karmanistic journey of autism.
Of course I find it important to deal with these triggering causes and reduce the effects of trauma.
I believe our spirit decides and through our soul creates this "app".
Therefore, all this didn`t happen because right then and there someone made an error, I wouldn`t blame this on anybody or anything.

I believe that my C-section and the situation were merely tools to the fact that Zsombor was born with autism. Thus, learning about autism became one of our lives`lessons, just as working on its improvement became my life`s main mission.
As you can tell, my birth story was eventful and sad.
Looking back, I would do things different from Zsombor`s birth through his first 3 years, but I`ll go into details later on.

Back in the day I remember watching the movie `Rainman`thinking what life would be like with an autistic child.
What would it be like if my child had autism?
Would I be strong enough to take on such a challenging task?
Would I be a good enough mother to make life enjoyable to a child dealing with such difficulties?
Well, life gave me the opportunity to see it for myself.
Since that day I`ll be forever grateful and I thank my son every day for opening up new dimensions for me and allowing me to meet his wonderful personality.